The truth is that it's been hard for me to ever put into words how much I've been destroyed. How much I've been scared, hurt, rejected and disappointed. How much I know that I am loved and cared for, blessed and lucky, and how frightened I am that it could all just go disappear.
The last three years have been filled with more ups than downs, but the downs have certainly been low.
Until now, I've never said how I've felt; about losing my dad, about finding my soul-mate, about becoming a mom, choosing a new career and so many of the other things that have happened since the beginning of 2012.
This is the place that I hope I can come with all the things I've been afraid to put out into the world for so long. Not for fear of judgement, but for fear of the realization that I may not be as "together" as I convince myself I am and the fear that admitting that might mean facing the truth that I've suppressed for so long; that there is a part of me that's just simply not okay.
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